Almost three months after pursuing a major career change, andrea and I are now questioning whether our decision to leave our previous life behind is a step forward or a step back.
For starters, without a regular source of income, we depend entirely and gregariously on what we get from our freelance writing job. (not exactly comparable to earning a bullion but the only thing we’ve got at the moment) Every time I think about getting a part-time work somewhere else, I can’t help but think twice about andrea and the two kids. Andrea doesn’t have anyone else in the house to help with the chores if I take on a regular job, nor does she get enough sleep with anika’s erratic sleeping habits.
Second, although we appreciate not paying rent, we have very little choice on what happens inside the house (especially now that andrea’s dad is back from working abroad). Oh how I miss the air-con in our previous place, and the freedom of not having to take care of anyone else but ourselves.
Third, mateo might be getting used to doing homeworks, taking tests, and even doing other things that are done in conventional schools, but I think he is regressing in terms of discipline. The artless strict disciplining methods that his teachers employ seem to be inadequate when it comes to nurturing our little kuya’s talents. His quizzes, seat-works, and exams all prove that he’s very much capable of handling everything they throw at him but he’s developing not-so-likable things especially when it comes to talking with others.
When I think about all these things, I can’t help but feel like we’ve made a bad decision. But then again, everything seemed to be handed down to us when we made the call – the sudden application, the unbelievably fast approval, the unexpected interview, and all the other little details that mysteriously made sense. Right now, all we can think of is that all the pains and difficulties are also part of a bigger plan. We may not be able to understand yet exactly what the whole plan is, but we’ve gone this far by trusting His signs. So there’s no point holding back now.