Andrea is already 37 weeks pregnant and can give birth anytime. However, according to the gynecologist, she would prefer if andrea delivers around the 38th week. I, on the other hand, am quite unsure.

I want to see my baby girl already but every time I think about how everything else is going to change when she comes, I still feel hesitant. We’ve barely adjusted to the huge change of moving back here in QC. Mateo doesn’t even know the names of all his classmates yet, and we, are still struggling on a routine to follow.

It’s a very anxious wait. With the cost of the delivery looming and the uncertainty of payout from freelance work, it feels like we need to buy gold bullions just to have something solid to hang onto.

Don’t get me wrong. I really want to hold my baby girl in my hands, and smell her, and take care of her and tell her up close how much I love her, but a lot of things are giving me pause. I just hope things work out well on their own. I’m starting to feel the acids in my stomach again from all the worrying.

Andrea and I have been building a new dream lately – a new business idea, a noble but unfortunately costly business idea. In fact, I’ve been so into it that I spend what little free time I have on adding more and more pieces to the puzzle – employee benefits, term life insurance, structural costs, designs, layouts, anything that strikes my fancy at any given moment.

It’s still a far cry from being complete, but hopefully my exposure in Brunei will give me more inspiration, insights, and a better grasp of chances to make our dream business come true. Until then, I will continue building the puzzle of a dream that we have.

Chat with old friends is very refreshing. Topics usually range from funny to crazy which makes talking so much more enjoyable. In fact, earlier, discussion revolved on relationships, weight loss stories, and saying goodbyes – with a little tinge of drama, yes, but enjoyable nonetheless. Well, the fact that chatting happened over pizza, doughnuts and coffee, was also a great help.

I wish we could have more of such chats. It’s a great escape and a much appreciated one at that.

Oh well, here’s looking forward to the next one!

Just came from meeting with friends – a splendid time off from the work-play routine that I’ve been complaining about. However, as we ate our afternoon snack, and munched doughnuts with coffee afterwards, I realized I’m now able to consume so much more than what I’ve been used to devouring before. Heck, I even ate rice for dinner after so much sweets, pasta and pizza.

Is there something wrong with me? Is it about time to take some generic Phentermine to suppress appetite? I sure hope not. I cannot be sick or having some sort of condition because andrea’s about to give birth, and I’m a few months away from leaving.

Must sort this out. Must stop liking food so much! Must… oh help!

With all the articles to write, house chores, and of course lots of play time with mateo, I end up having less than 8 hours of sleep. And since I can’t really complain about work, my body is trying to fight back the sleep deprivation by coffee and eating more.

When I feel sleepy, I drink some coffee. To prevent getting hyperacidity from coffee, I eat cookies, leftovers, basically anything I can get my hands on. I’m afraid I might end up putting on a lot of extra weight because of this new routine but I don’t know what to do at the moment. Gym is out of the question. I have no time for sports either (not to mention no money for them too). Appetite suppressants seem inviting but I’m afraid it would cost me too.

I’m just hoping something would come up to fix the schedule for me. Perhaps, once I get the hang of writing more articles then I could it faster. That should give me more time for sleep, right?! Brilliant! Now how exactly do I do that?

We’ve recently come across a video, The story of stuff, while browsing through blogs of some of our friends and we can’t help but feel sad about the whole clip.

The message was so moving that we are now currently re-evaluating the way we’ve been living for the past so and so years. The truth is, as much as we’ve tried to do our part in cleaning up by bringing home our trash, we’re every bit as guilty as everyone else in the world who grew up in an environment of consumerism.

We too have been buying things we don’t particularly need. We’ve replaced completely useful stuff with new ones just because we liked the new models better. We often fail to reuse stuff and recycle goods as well. Every bit as guilty, which is why we’re now promising to make a drastic change.

Going to Brunei will be the start of all the changes for us. Heck, we’re not even planning on buying new strollers for anika anymore. Sad to say, we’re bidding goodbye to Baby jogger city select strollers, little tikes playmats and little tikes playhouses.

From now on, no more buying of new stuff until we’ve completely exhausted all options. We’re taking this new perspective to heart and we’ll try our best to instill the same thing in mateo and anika.

Everybody is being vocal about their take on the country’s new president. Some are being hopeful because of the wonderful showing that Noynoy had given during his inauguration. Most are just relieved because the reign of the previous leader has ended. Others still remain skeptical, myself included.

While it is true that he was prompt in many, if not all, his dealings, political or otherwise, he still has a lot of issues to resolve. The fact that he’s in the shadow of his mother and father (2 of the largest political heroes of the country), does nothing but give a tiny sense of comfort. The truth is he still hasn’t proven anything.

Despite of this, here are some things that I like about Noynoy:

• Very prompt
• Goal-oriented and very specific
• Has a huge legacy on his shoulders
• Single (could be married to his work)

On the other had, here are some things I would like to see from him in the future:

• Concern about environment – street parties are ok, but did he even emphasize clean up afterwards? Does he even intend to delve into the issues of green awareness? Or taxes and deaths are all that occupy his mind and plans?
• Concern about education – with all the budget cuts that he is planning, does he even take the education department (or issue) to be one of the recipients of the money everyone’s going to save for?
• Bigger picture – Specific actions are good (banning of sirens, etc.) but I have yet to see the bigger picture he has in his head (I’m really hoping he has one or else he is going to be the biggest disappointment ever).

It is still a bit too early to close the curtains on him, nor to paint mustaches on his poster. I am willing to wait. I’m guessing the whole country is too, otherwise the election would not have given such a lopsided result, but I hope he shows a bit more soon.

After accomplishing the papers I needed for Brunei, I felt a bit relieved. Little did I know, that the relief from paper work would be short lived.

You see, as preparation for Andrea’s delivery, we decided to follow up the necessary papers that would be needed in the hospital. I went to several places to update records and pass requirements – SSS, PhilHealth, Cardinal Hospital, and so many others I don’t even remember at the moment. In fact, I’m still waiting for two other certificates.

On top of this, the fact that last week’s ultrasound result says that anika is 36 weeks old in size is putting a bit more pressure in the whole deal of deadlines. When she does come out, there’ll be more papers to add to the fray.  Papers again! Stress levels are up to here already that I don’t think wrinkle treatments will be enough. It’s a really trying time for me and the whole family, but I know everything will be alright when we have our next little angel in our arms already!

Andrea is growing more and more restless about bringing anika out already. Despite being told that I love her tummy, she still insists on finding ways to go back to a hundred plus pounds after our daughter comes out. I assured her that we could go back to running or regular exercise after she recovers but she still scours the net for natural ways to lose weight quickly.

In fact, the last time I saw her laptop on, she was reading moyoberry reviews. I also saw several other tabs with what I assumed to be pages of the same topic. I didn’t say a word about it.

I know for a fact that the hormones must be playing a great part in the restlessness, but then again, 9 months is a long time to wait.

I promise you ny, I’ll help you get back to being fit. In fact, we’ll both be fit once anika is out and safe. Just wait a bit longer.

I miss the carefree days – the time when andrea and I would worry only about where to have dinner, or which movie to watch, or what time do we go home; the time when our biggest concerns were blackhead treatments, acne breakouts, exams the following day, and paper deadlines; basically the time when everything was so simple (even though we were selfishly complaining about getting the bad end of everything).

Nowadays, I can’t even worry about pimple anymore. Our dog is sick, had a nosebleed this afternoon, did not eat much this evening, and a little too tame than usual the whole day. Andrea is a week away from giving birth, and we still haven’t reached our target in the bank for her delivery. We’re both out of jobs at the moment, and I don’t even have enough money right now to put some gas in the car.

The truth is, even if I want to worry about pimples, I really can’t. There’s not enough room in the brain for acne worries at the moment. Huhuhu! Where have all the carefree days gone?