Whenever andrea and I look back  at our miscarriage, we can’t help but wonder what happened. Were we too careless with our movements? Is there anything we did wrong or did not do? Is there anything we could have done to prevent what happened?

As far as I know, we’ve done nothing different from the time when andrea was still carrying mateo in her womb. As far as rest is concerned, she was even working full time when mateo was still inside. She’s working part time now. In terms of vitamins, she was given practically the same regimen of vitamins as before. Heck, we even consulted sites such as prenatalvitamins.net to check her prescriptions. She did not contract any sicknesses or ailments or meet any accidents. She was healthy and happy.

According to the gynecologist, it was a cord coil accident. The mark on her neck region seems to confirm the doctor’s theory. And it was something that we could not do anything about. Either her umbilical cord was shorter than supposed to, or by some stroke of bad luck, it just happened to coil around her neck.

It was an accident. That’s what we were told but I still can’t help but feel paranoid. How can the next one be spared? How can we make sure that it doesn’t happen again? Because I don’t think I can handle the same thing again. I just can’t.