I’ve been teaching children for almost 5 years already. I know it doesn’t seem that long. But I was just reminded of how long that really is when I realized how different things are now from before when I was still a student.

You see, this Saturday, as part of the requirement for the extra education units I’m currently taking, I’m scheduled to take an exam (as in actually answer one instead of proctoring one), but it’s been excruciatingly difficult to prepare for it. I’ve been reading and reading these past few days (after UP called to inform me about the test schedule) but I can’t seem to perfectly recall everything I read. It’s like my brain is refusing to remember too many details (or more correctly, trivial information).

It’s so different from when I was back in college. I mean coming from a BS. course that heavily relies on memorization (Biology), my battering average lately in retention is squat. That’s how different things are right now for me. That’s why I realized it’s been quite a while… a real long while since I knew how it felt to cram for an exam, since I last panicked for a test, since I last forced myself to concentrate this much, since I last felt what it feels like to be a student. Five years!

In these past five years my brain has switched preference to memorizing other details such as car specifications, laptop configurations, best vacation spots, Caribbean villa rentals, infant apparels, infant milk formula brands, etc. Jogging it to remember how to remember the way it used to is frustratingly very difficult. And with only a day more to go before the test, the pressure mounts even more. Huhu! I hope my brain remembers how to think like a student again before Saturday or I’m really screwed.