spent

There comes a point every year when I feel really exhausted to the point of questioning the very reason why I keep on teaching. For this year, it just came a bit early.

You see for the past few years that I’ve been teaching, this type of feeling would always comes late in the year – usually during the last trimester of school. (When the students I’ve been pouring my heart out to in terms of effort have not yet shown any progress.) This year, however, I’m starting to see the familiar symptoms this early – stomach aches, hyper acidity, migraine attacks, and occasional loss of interest.

I’m not sure if it’s because of the extra role that I’ve been given, or if it’s the major change in administration, or if it’s the extra 9 units of studies I’m taking on top of everything else. All I know is that I’m tired – so spent serving several masters at the same time – work, more work, studies, and family. Don’t get me wrong though. I don’t feel any apprehensions toward any of them. I guess what’s just really making it tough for me right now is the fact that I have a lot of expectations for myself and for what I could and should do – at home and in school. But really… what can I do?

All I’m craving for right now is a break. Vegas vacations, work moratorium, family outing – I don’t really know which one I prefer most. All I know is that I’m close to freaking out and I’m up to here in terms of stress. Whatever it is I have to figure it out before I literally and figuratively explode!