Last night, I wanted to go to bed early because my eyes were really tired from all the reading, checking and posting that I did the whole day. Right after dinner, my eyelids felt really heavy, and I was having a hard time keeping them open.

So when mateo showed signs of sleepiness, I took the chance and lied down in bed. Andrea and mateo took a place beside me. I thought this was it. I was finally going to sleep, until mateo decided to start moving around. Oh no! He was having one of those nights… those difficult times when he’s experiencing trouble finding his sleep.

In just moments, he was all over the bed. He kept crying. He bit his mama’s nipple and then he and andrea were in a fit. Afterwards, andrea wouldn’t let him suck anymore so mateo started crying louder and louder. This was becoming a disaster… and just when I was really so sleepy too. My patience was also wearing dangerously thin. So when mateo decided to wail even louder, I blew my fuse…

I was so mad I wanted to hit him in the butt but I couldn’t. Instead I tried putting a hand to cover his mouth but that turned out to be a bad idea. You see, andrea got so mad at me and started scolding me. Fortunately, sleep took over soon and I couldn’t remember what happened next.

I woke up this morning feeling guilty about what happened last night. So I was extra kind to mateo and andrea when they woke up just a few minutes after I did. I never want that to happen again so I vowed never to lose my patience with mateo again. Never again… no matter how sleepy I am.