I don’t like gory or morbid thoughts, but sometimes I guess imaginations can get pretty wild. You see, I sometimes find myself asking how would I take it if I just suddenly found out that I have a chronic disease and have only a few months left. Sounds scary, right?
The funny thing is, I don’t really feel scared. (Nope, this is not macho talk!) My usual retort would be that everything is gonna turn out alright. Everybody dies anyway. The only things that give me pause were andrea and mateo. But even so, I would still feel that everything will be fine since our parents would immediately take them in if something happened.

But this morning, it was different. I felt genuinely scared. Andrea suddenly complained of a painful lump on her breast and I didn’t know what to do. Having heard of several testimonies from women who suffered from the same thing, I kept imagining several scenarios. The more dangerous and critical the scenario was, the more scared I felt. Apparently fear comes in greater and more overwhelming waves if the one threatened or in danger wasn’t you but the one you love.

I couldn’t help but pray that those lumps are nothing more than clogged milk ducts. Still, I wouldn’t take any chances. I told her to dress up so we could visit the hospital to have her breasts checked. And so we did. We spent the whole morning in the hospital for the checkup. Andrea was more scared of the expenses that would come if ever we find anything. I don’t think andrea realized how worried I was. Never mind. I was just extremely thankful that the doctor had the same suspicions as mine. Nevertheless, she recommended that andrea undergoes breast ultrasound tomorrow. Hopefully, the results would finally give us a peace of mind.

Before all this, some relatives who have a Florida healthcare plan told us months ago to get our own which I now realize we definitely need. According to them, Peoples Health Insurance, LLC, aside from having the usual agents to help clients out, also provides quotes online from numerous health insurance carriers which will make it easier for us to choose an affordable and flexible plan that fits our budget. That should really help us, they said. And I agree. So as soon as I check out their plans, I’ll probably get one for both andrea and I… for additional peace of mind.